Talking for the Sake of Talking

So.... Here I am. On the interwebs for everyone to see. Not that anyone will particularly want to read this. It's just a bunch of rubbish. But anyone who knows me, knows that I could talk for decades and never get bored. So here is my contribution to the blogging world. A friend of mine convinced me to do it, and he assured me that this is mainly for me. A personal journal for myself - that happens to be out on the internet for anyone to read. The idea intrigues me, however, considering I secretly (or maybe not so secretly) enjoy the attention.

If you're still reading this, I'm mildly surprised. I suppose I should talk about something... like a topic maybe? What's bothering me today is mainly my inability to say no. Not to super important, dangerous things like drugs or rape... I can say no to those, don't worry... But I'm a notorious people-pleaser. It was my New Year's Resolution to try not to please others so much. I'm not doing a very good job at it. I try way too hard to make everyone else happy. But really, making people happy is what makes me happy so... does that work? If I can make others happy while making myself happy isn't that a good thing? Killing two birds with one stone, and I like efficiency. Putting others before myself shouldn't bother me so much but it gets to the point where I worry way too much about what everyone else feels that I ignore my own feelings and then I'm exhausted. So from here on out I will try a lot harder to please myself once in a while. It will make me happier in the end.

In other news, I can't be happier that it's spring break. Even though my break isn't going to be very "breaky" after tomorrow considering I'm getting my 4 wisdom teeth out and then Thursday I have what could be the most awkward doctor's appointment of my life. It sucks getting old - just throwing that out there. So today I'm going to enjoy the last pain-free day of my break and bake some delicious banana bread and then hang out with my future roomies tonight :) Everyone have a wonderful day, sorry for wasting your time.